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Sunday, September 11, 2011

A Decade Too Close

Ten years ago today I was a senior in college and most likely at a prayer/memorial gathering for the 9/11 victims at this time that day.  We didn't know the extent of the fall-out, but we knew the basics -- even at our little college in rural Indiana.  It was a very strange day, one that I will never forget.  Such a surreal event to occur in the first semester of my last year of college, when everything was looking so rosy and I had just finished a semester and summer living in New York City.  I felt connected, disconnected and overwhelmed at the same time.  Over the years since 2001, I have tried to take a moment each 9/11 to remember that day -- to reflect on the lives lost and the hearts broken.  Yet today, I shied away from all the ceremonies and commemorations.  Knowing that 10 years has passed is too much.  Perhaps it is my own realization of how much I have aged (and hopefully matured) since that day, but I think it is also the fact that I now have a family of my own and cannot face what palpable pain the families of all of the victims still feel.  I cannot go there right now and I know that I would if I watched the coverage and the specials.  Not only am I too emotional from pregnancy, but I can also empathize too well with those wives, husbands, children, mothers, daughters and sisters who lost it all that day -- and it is too scary.  It may make me a wimp for keeping the tributes, video montages and heart breaking song mash-ups at an arm's length, but it is self-preservation for me at the moment.

Like everyone else I will never forget.  I will never stop being thankful for the women and men who protect and serve America.  I will never take our freedom, our security and our safety for granted.  9/11 changed the shape of America and I will never forget.  I hope that everyone had a chance to reflect today and be thankful for the blessings surrounding them and remember those that were lost that day.  I hope you did it in your own way.

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